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Thursday, January 22, 2009

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 16:36:45 GMT

So...whats new?

Firstly, I went back to the states for christmas, which was totally amazing.
45 of my entire family packed into my Grandmas little house. Can't get much
better than that can you?!
I'm back now and am trying to get back into the normal routine of things. Its been rough.

Secondly, I'm now 17. Do I feel any older? Or different? Not really. I'm thinking thats
a good thing. I like being young.

Thirdly, I'm having a Mexican themed birthday party this weekend. Should be pretty
fun. Dan and chris are dressing up as border control. Freaking hilarious.

Yup.
That's pretty much it.

I've got a secret...

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 20:33:09 GMT

I feel like I should blog more. But its rare that I ever get the motivation to sit down, and think through something that might be worth reading. It normally starts out with music. Somehow a certain song will move me to text or email someone, or to sit down and blog about nonsense. I'm listening to a song called "In The Deep Shade" by a band from Dublin called "The Frames"..... listen to it. I love it. It doesn't even need words, it just kinda talks to you through the music. I think thats what music is all about.

www.myspace.com/theframesofficial

A-MAZING!

Anyways, moving on.
It's almost 2009. And I doubt I'll blog again until then. So here we go, a recap of this year.

To be honest, this years been amazing and hard at the same time. There have been millions of laughs, tears(good and bad), awkward and priceless moments, hugs, and times that I will cherish for the rest of my life.

At the beginning of this year, I branched out and became my own person. Up until that point, I had held on to my sisters hand for dear life because I was too shy to ever do anything by myself, and too scared to make my own decisions. I went to the church she went to, went where she went, and always had her decide things for me. I left her church, and found my own. It was amazing at first, and I loved not having to have her with me. But as time went on, things didn't sit right with my heart, and I knew that it wasn't the church for me.
Summer time came which means thats time to go home(missouri) for the summer. There isn't a feeling in the world like knowing that your about to be back in the place where you grew up. It was an amazing summer. I got to watch my little genies(gavin and jade) grow up 3 more months. There were some hard times throughout that summer, but to be honest, I see now that God was just proving to me how He has every situation under control, no matter how crazy it may seem at the time. I was in Missouri for 2 months and in Texas for 2 weeks.
On September 17th, I caught a flight back to Scotland. Tears.
I started working, doing school, and going to the junior academy again. All was fine and dandy, except for I wasn't going to church and found myself constantly wishing I could be anywhere else.
Rolling around to November.
Things were still the same. I got fed up with the lack of church in my life. So I went back to the church where my sister goes. I didn't start going because she was there, but because I wanted to see what it was like to go out of my own decision. It felt good to be back.
Its December now, and I finally feel back to normal again. Pretty soon the long, dark days will start to get brighter. I'm excited.
In the last month. I've made a bunch of new friends. Karen, Michael, Clay, Brennan - just to name a few. Even though I hardly know Clay and Brennan, they are forsure amazing guys. It's been a pleasure getting to know them. They're exchange students from Cali and are going back home this weekend. You guys will be very much missed, trust me.

Its that time in my life where I'm having to make decisions about what to do. ie. college ect, and its scary! But I'm honestly just trying to figure out how to completely trust God through it.

Christmas time is here! =) I love it. I'm so excited.
In under a month, I will be 17.
Oh, and I've found a new game that I'm addicted to. Sudoku. =)

The battery on this laptop is about to go. So I've gotta run.
See you next year.

ally

Depressing....

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 20:24:32 GMT

I'm dreamin' tonight of a place I love
Even more then I usually do
And although I know it's a long road back
I promise you

I'll be home for Christmas
You can count on me
Please have snow and mistletoe
And presents under the tree
Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love light beams
I'll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams

Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love light beams
I'll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams
If only in my dreams

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 16:51:55 GMT

When I think of God...

I see this...

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 07:40:53 GMT

Big day today.

I think we're in trouble either way.

Yikes!

Lazy Day....and I mean LAZY!

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 18:43:15 GMT

So it all starts out last night when me and chris fall asleep watching smallville. He goes to bed, and leaves me on the couch...all night.

I wake up the next morning around 9, 10 actually because to my body I'm still an hour ahead since the clocks went back last night. So anyways, I get up and make tea and breakfast...yummm....

I take this food into the living room, and turn on smallville. (We recently just bought season 6 on dvd!!)

I put in the 4th disk, and mind you theres only 6.

I watch this whole disk. I decide that I'm hungry. I eat 3 huge cheese tortillas and hotsauce(SO GOOD!), and then me and fish do all the dishes.

(haha! there weren't that many, close though!)

I have now moved back into the livingroom and put on disk 5. Its now about 1ish.

I watch the whole disk. I then decide I want more tea! Its almost 4 o'clock now.

(yummm)

Then I stick on disk 6!

I watch the entire disk. Its now 7:30.
(Boy, was season 6 good or what?!)

I watched 3 disks. Which adds up to 12 , 45 minute long episodes!

So, all in all. This was me today. All day. Just imagine a lot of food!

=) It was entirely amazing!

Giving up on this world...

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 16:05:08 GMT

I've recently been listening to Underoath's new cd lately. The least I can say is that it truly is amazing.

Throughout the whole cd, spencer(the lead singer/screamer) talks about how messed up this world is, and how we're all doomed...

"Our hopes and dreams
Will be swallowed
We always said it wouldn't end up like this
We will be the new ice age
We will be the new plague"

"We are the cancer
We are the virus
Tell me it's not too late"

"There's a calling ahead
A desperation
A falling of man
We are all lost in the sound of separation"

"Hands in the air and love at our sides
There's gotta be something bigger
With the beating in our throats
And the tremble in our grip
This can't be it"

"I'll come up for peace
I'll come down for truth
I'll give in, I'll give up for you
The floors are shaking
And we've lost our step
Oh Lord, have mercy on us all"

Then the last song leaves you remembering that theres actually hope for this world. Its awesome, and I love it!

"You said there was nothing left down here
Well I roamed around the wasteland
And I swear I found something
I found hope, I found God
I found the dreams of the believers"

Oh, God! Save us all"

Monday, September 22, 2008

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 19:54:25 GMT

I'm back.

I'm hurting.

Its not fun.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 13:43:34 GMT

Sorry for not blogging.

I've been extremely busy!

In the last week I've:

Taken my grade 5(most important) music theory exam.
Finished my normal school year.
Worked my last shift in Starbucks until September.

In the next 5 days I'm going to have:

My last day of the junior academy for this year.
My reassessment for the academy so I can come back next year!
My last Sunday at my church - which I have now been going to for 6 months!

Good times!

Friday, May 09, 2008

Fri, 09 May 2008 20:37:34 GMT

Haggai

2:23
"The Lord All-Powerful says, 'On that day I will take you, Zerubbabel son of Shealtiel, my servant,' says the Lord. 'and I will make you important like my signet ring, because I have chosen you!' says the Lord All-Powerful."